Discouraged?

"There is presumption when one relies more upon one's own resources than on the help of God...

"It is not unusual for a person to slip rather quickly from a state of presumption into a state of despair when faced with trials and difficulties...That discouragement leads first to pessimism, and then to lukewarmness, a lukewarmness which feels that the struggle for personal holiness is too difficult a task;  what happens next is that all effort is abandoned.

"The cause of discouragement is not the existence of difficulties, but rather the absence of a genuine desire for holiness and of reaching Heaven.  When we love God and want to love him more, we avail ourselves of difficulties to show him our love and to grow in virtue.  Lack of hope creeps in when bourgeois attitudes are allowed to flourish in the soul;  when one becomes attached to things of this world, regarding them as the only things that are worthwhile.

"The lukewarm person becomes discouraged because through a good deal of culpable negligence he has lost sight of his goal, which is personal holiness and a desire to know and love God more.  Then material things take on an absolute value, if not in theory, at least in practice.  If we make temporal projects into absolute goals, eliminating from our horizons our eternal dwelling and the goal for which we have been created - to love and praise God and to possess him afterwards in heaven - then our noblest efforts betray us and lead to our defilement."  -- from In Conversation With God, vol. 2, pp461-462.